Thursday, February 19, 2009
Calm Down: I Have Stilled and Quieted My Soul
God's timing is so perfect. As I looked at the title of this chapter I smiled. I would change the wording just a bit "He has stilled and quieted my soul".
When I am weak He is strong. The peace I have today is of Him, there is no doubt about it. This morning before I began my devotional time I perused my prayer journal entries of the last four weeks. Pain, bewilderment, confusion, desperation, these are but a few of the emotions that are spilled out across the pages of my journal. Yet today I have a peace that belies what has been written.
And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus
Jennifer writes "Experiencing real shalom seems nearly impossible in our chaotic lives" Isn't THAT the truth! Of course it is nearly impossible not totally impossible.
She goes on to tell us that "Before we can really appreciate the source of peace, we need to acknowledge why we have angry, smoldering embers in our thought closets to begin with. We must identify the source of our anger"
Once again I find myself a bit ad odds with this study. As I look into my thought closet I don't see anger. What I do see is fear and doubt. This terrible duo can be just as destructive as anger so I found that as I continued in this chapter the truth of God is just as effective against them as anger.
It was not hard at all to identify the source of my fear and doubt. His name is Brett, I love him with all that I am. He is the oldest of my four children. He is in jail. I have absolutely NO control over him or the outcome of his trial.
What I DO have control over is:
my own attitude
my responses to circumstances
my choice to seek God
my determination to be still before God
my choice to acknowledge that He is God and we are not!
In my book I circled something on page 105 and I wrote next to it Lindly.
The text is a bible verse "Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10)
At a moment of utter weakness and despair my precious daughter sent me a link to a youtube video of Steven Curtis Chapman's song of the same name. I felt as if Jesus himself had come down from the throne room of heaven to give me that message. I took it in and spoke it to my thought closet. The result was peace and sleep that evening. Both of those things had been eluding me up until then.
Of the three Washouts on the Path to Peace that Jennifer mentions I will say that the most difficult for me has been A Negative Mind -Set
She writes "Some things in life are simply hard. We don't like them, we don't want them, but we have to deal with them anyway." So true! We can deal with them in our own power and be scorched with the flames of anger or beat down by despair or we can seek God and speak His words of peace into our thought closets which will enable us to overcome even the hardest things in life!