Lost Boy

There once was a charming little boy who looked at the moon and saw a cookie

He had the biggest brown eyes that danced when he smiled and a more charming smile did not exist.

He enamored everyone wherever he went, even the crankiest of old men
Everyone loved him...... but most of all his mommy

She didn't know such love was even possible, sometimes the fear of something happening to him was more than she could bear

He brought her such joy!

Questions all the time about every little thing.....
Why does water bubble when it gets hot? Why don't spiders fall off the ceiling? Who made God?

hugs, kisses, giggles, and always I Love You Mommy!

Then one day when she wasn't looking..... He started to grow up.
He could get his own cereal in the morning and pour his own juice, he could even take a bath and wash his own hair.

He found the answers to alot of his questions in books and of course school.
So he didn't need his mommy so much anymore.
She was sad but all little boys need to grow up so she let him.

Years went by and the mommy was very busy as mommies always are. There were other children to care for, errands to run, and always housework.

Then one day she realized that she had not seen the little boy in awhile, Oh she saw him come and go but as she watched him she realized a difference about him.

He looked like her little boy, same dark hair, same big brown eyes... maybe that was it, his eyes didn't dance anymore.

There were no questions, no hugs,no kisses not even an occasional giggle.

Where did he go??

In time she began to look for him.

Sometimes she felt like she would never find him...she cried alot

She looked and looked but he was nowhere....

A couple of times she thought she had found him but alas it wasn't her little boy at all an imposter, a cruel imitation, he looked like the boy, talked like him, walked like him...but it wasn't him. Gone were the dancing eyes, the thoughtful questions.

When she looked at him she saw indifference, pain, a disregard for all that he used to hold dear.

In time she came to see that the sweet boy she loved was indeed there but trapped.

Trapped in a haze of confusion, lies, drugs, addiction.

Did he even understand he was trapped? Could he just leave? Did he want to leave?

Blessed

A very important day is right around the corner.

It's not a wedding anniversary or a birthday but an anniversary of a meeting

a meeting that changed my life forever.

Funny, I was in a bad mood for most of the night.

Out of sync with my good friends who all seemed to be following their own agendas.

Not having a strong will to follow my own I tagged along with them.

Larry, Tom, Robin.

Odd... at the time they were my closest friends...now I haven't a clue where they are.

Then there was Paul..so cute! SO funny!! Totally 80's wearing a skinny tie.

Hands down the best looking man ever!

October 7, 1983

God reached down from heaven and sent me the love of my life

one who has ever since that day cared for me, loved me, and kept me laughing!

I didn't realize until recently that the laughter is what keeps me going.

For those who know me well I am a melancholy sort..prone to drama and tears.

at least I used to be... "Tina, don't be so dramatic!!" a favorite of mom in my youth.

But for the last 25 amazing years I have laughed and loved as Paul and I walk through life together.

Looking forward to the next 25!